It's Official - I Have Completely Lost It

I am...well, completely and utterly a wreck. I swear. It's /pathetic/, I'm being all weepy and depressed and "oh god I'm going to miss everyone so much and I can't do this" and then switching to more stressed out psychotic "I need to pack five thousand more things and none of it's going to fit and I need to get a job and a phone and buy a bunch of conditioner and I have way too many books and none of my summer reading is done and...." *spazzes out and dies*
Breathe, Ed. Just...breathe. So, to pre-empt my complete psychological meltdown and transformation into a puddle of stress-goo, I am listening to Gackt. A lot of Gackt, at considerable volume. My upstairs neighbor must /hate/ me. *Mwuaahaahaa* Karma. The guy's an ass. He deserves to be bombarded with loud homoerotic Japanese music in the middle of the night. So there, jerk.
On the bright side, I did see a job opening in one of the libraries....*drools* the /only career area in which I have any usable skills whatsoever. Heh. I fail.
I am also blue. Very, extremely blue. In a literal sense, not in a figurative emotional sense. It's a good color on my hair, I think. Although it does make me look like I painted my forehead with woad. Which, inexplicably, makes me think of Sephiroth. Don't ask. Just...don't. Please.