masterofmidgets: (fairytales)
In Those Years

In those years, people will say, we lost track
of the meaning of we, of you
we found ourselves
reduced to I
and the whole thing became
silly, ironic, terrible:
we were trying to live a personal life
and, yes, that was the only life
we could bear witness to

But the great dark birds of history screamed and plunged
into our personal weather
They were headed somewhere else but their beaks and pinions drove
along the shore, through rages of fog
where we stood, saying I
masterofmidgets: (fairytales)
Fat Is Not a Fairy Tale

Jane Yolen

I am thinking of a fairy tale,
Cinder Elephant,
Sleeping Tubby,
Snow Weight,
where the princess is not
anorexic, wasp-waisted,
flinging herself down the stairs.

I am thinking of a fairy tale,
Hansel and Great,
Repoundsel,
Bounty and the Beast,
where the beauty
has a pillowed breast,
and fingers plump as sausage.

I am thinking of a fairy tale
that is not yet written,
for a teller not yet born,
for a listener not yet conceived,
for a world not yet won,
where everything round is good:
the sun, wheels, cookies, and the princess.
masterofmidgets: (save me captain weasel)
Three Things About Wednesday:

1. Now that I can look at food again without wanting to curl up and die, I've been making good use of my kitchen. So far this week: pan-fried steak and fried polenta, Tofu With Three Sauces (and no cilantro), sweet-and-sour pork with smashed potatoes (not the bad take-out sweet and sour, more of a western kind of thing with mirin standing in for the white wine and rice vinegar for the white wine vinegar), and tonight, Asian-ish Tofu and baby bok choy, my most favorite of vegetables. I feel like it's worth noting that I am on my third bottle of soy sauce and my second jar of chile paste since I moved in here, but the red wine vinegar and the barbecue sauce are still largely untouched. Also, I have given up on ever getting caught up with the dishes. I shall console myself with homemade sourdough bread.

2. Did anyone else watch the pilot of the US remake of Being Human? SO UNIMPRESSED. Look, people, I can throw a rock and hit fifteen other sci fi/fantasy series in which conventionally attractive twenty-five-year-olds have are portentiously, melodramatically miserable about their plight in front of grey-toned scenery. I don't really need another one when I can just go watch Supernatural again instead. I'll give it one more episode to not suck, but with the new series of the UK version starting this weekend, I think I'll probably just be a BBC-snob and stick with that. (Besides, fake!Mitchell is not nearly as cute as real!Mitchell. DNW.)

3. Apropos of absolutely nothing, have some Middle English. Because this section of Sir Orfeo is kind of wonderful.

(context: Orfeo, the harper-king, is wandering in the forest when he encounters a group of fairy-women out hawking. When he follows them, one of the women turns out to be his wife, who has been a captive of the fair folk for ten years and whose abduction was the impetus for Orfeo's self-imposed exile.)

Yern he biheld hir, and sche him eke,
Ac noither to other a word no speke;
For messais that sche on him seighe,
That had ben so riche and so heighe,
The teres fel out of her eighe.
The other levedis this y-seighe
And maked hir oway to ride -
Sche most with him no lenger abide.
"Allas!" quath he, "now me is wo!"
Whi nil deth now me slo?
Allas, wreche, that y no might
Dye now after this sight!
Allas! to long last mi liif,
When y no dar nought with mi wiif,
No hye to me, o word speke.
Allas! Whi nil min hert breke!

Beeeeeeeed

Mar. 18th, 2010 12:46 am
masterofmidgets: (ask me later)
I HAVE SURVIVED THE CRISIS OF INFINITE FINALS

Never ever ever again am I allowed to have four finals on the same day. That was seriously manic. Like, I can't even - I stayed up the entire night, studying and not-studying and playing Dungeons and Dragons because I am a moron of epic proportions. Dragged myself out the door at a barbaric 8am to sit my anthro final, which was luckily the easiest exam of the day - half multiple choice, open note, all stuff covered in lecture and on the review.

Ran home as soon as I finished the exam to get back to work writing my take-home exam for sci fi, which was about the construction of cyborg and android families in Blade Runner and Ghost in the Shell and how internet communities are extinguishing our sense of concrete identity. Neat ideas, if the execution was a struggle. But I got 5 pages typed and emailed to my TA only a little bit late, so I can't feel terribly bad about it.

As soon as I finished that I started revising poetry for my final portfolio and reviewing Middle English poetry for my literature exam, which was 100% quotation IDs from the readings. That exam was at 7 and I am cautiously optimistic - I felt confident about most of the quotes I identified, and a few I couldn't remember I sussed out by rhyme pattern and style. So we'll see.

Then ran back to the dorm again to revise more poetry so I could get my portfolio finished and emailed to the prof by midnight. Revising poetry is not as easy as it sounds. I hate it. Passionately. But I like my end results, so...

I don't even know how I feel right now. I am too exhausted to think straight. And tomorrow I have to get up at the ass-crack of dawn to get to the airport to catch my flight home, which I'm not looking forward to in the least bit because airplanes are the devil. But for now I'm just trying to happy it's over and I'm still alive. So, in celebration, here's an Arthurian villanelle!

Guinevere at Amesbury

Guinevere is standing by the window still )
masterofmidgets: (writing)
Much less grumpy today after an early night in and more Being Human than any rational person needs, so thank you all for putting up with my whining yesterday. ;D

I suspect a good bit of my bad temper yesterday was lingering subconscious panic over the idea of being workshopped in my poetry class today. I love the workshopping process and I think it's been tremendously helpful to me as a writer (even in the last year or so I can see how much my writing has changed for the better), but damn is it scary to do. There's always a part of me that goes into a workshop expecting everyone to collectively pan my writing as uninspired garbage and summarily boot me out of the writing program before I shame them too badly. The fact that this has not ever happened is immaterial; presumably the professors and other students who told me in previous classes they liked my writing were just humoring me because they didn't want to have to break the news to me themselves and hoped in good time I'd figure it out on my own.

My irrational mental drama notwithstanding, the workshop went really well, and I got some great feedback on my poem, both of the 'gratuitous praise of my literary genius' camp (well, okay, no. But there were very complementary things said about my metaphors!), and of the 'this sucks fix it now' camp, so I have some good ideas of where to start my revisions.

you had a morning glory inked on your wrist )
masterofmidgets: (fight song)
Halfway through the Week of Midterm Hell, and starting to see the light on the other side. I gave a presentation on Tuesday that went as well as presentations in a foreign language ever go - I think the only thing I really screwed up was inexplicably forgetting how to count people. Cause we haven't known how to do that for a year and a half. But I talked coherently about clubs at Stanford for three minutes, I didn't pause awkwardly too much, and I remembered to work in a lot of the new grammar stuff. Our midterm exam is tomorrow - all the stuff from chapter one of the Intermediate Japanese book (-- ばtかり、ようになる、ことにする/なる、--てはじめて、-- にくい/やすい、 -- らしい、all that good stuff), plus a bunch of review stuff from last term, like transitive/intranstive, keigo, etc. Our sensei said it was pretty easy, so I'm not too worried - an hour or two of studying later and I should be fine.

Shocking to no one, I was up all night writing the draft of my second lit paper. Since this is my Writing in the Major class (ugh ugh why don't they have a prose option for this? Hate you, English department!), I have to turn in my papers a week before the due date and have a paper conference before I revise it. Draft was fairly rubbish - my main points are all there, and I think my analysis is okay, it's mostly that it doesn't have a conclusion or an introduction, mostly because I ran out of time and didn't want to risk submitting late. So not looking forward to paper conference. But at least it's in, and the revision will be a lot less stressful than writing a paper from scratch like the non-majors will be doing.

I am so unbelievably grateful to my religions prof for moving the due date of our midterm paper back to Monday. I'm pretty sure trying to get another paper done this week would have killed me - especially since I have work tomorrow, so I wouldn't even be able to start not-working on it until I got home at 10.00. Ew. I'm actually kind of looking forward to writing this paper - the topic's pretty nifty - but not tomorrow night. Professor B = Bestest prof ever <3333

I know Poetry Month is over, but that should never be an excuse not to post poetry! I wrote the first half of my paper last night on this poem, mostly because I have an enormous crush on the last two lines.

A Blessing by James Wright


Just off the Highway to Rochester, Minnesota
Twilight bounds softly forth on the grass.
And the eyes of those two Indian ponies
Darken with kindness.
They have come gladly out of the willows
To welcome my friend and me.
We step over the barbed wire into the pasture
Where they have been grazing all day, alone.
They ripple tensely, they can hardly contain their happiness
That we have come.
They bow shyly as wet swans. They love each other.
There is no loneliness like theirs.
At home once more,
They begin munching the young tufts of spring in the darkness.
I would like to hold the slenderer one in my arms,
For she has walked over to me
And nuzzled my left hand.
She is black and white,
Her mane falls wild on her forehead,
And the light breeze moves me to caress her long ear
That is delicate as the skin over a girl's wrist.
Suddenly I realize
That if I stepped out of my body I would break
Into blossom.


masterofmidgets: (cap wants to eat your brains)
HELP HELP CAMPUS IS OVERRUN WITH TINY HIGH-SCHOOLERS

They are swarming everywhere, like a horde of insects with sleeping bags and really obnoxious parents. I do not like Admit Weekend. DDDDX And it's weird, because every time I get dragged into speaking to high school students, one of the things I always make sure to tell them very emphatically is to go to Admit Weekend at whatever colleges they are checking out, because it makes such a huge difference - I was very ambivalent about where I wanted to go, until about five minutes after I got here. So I do think it's a good thing! It's just that when they are actually here...I resent them so much! There's just way too many people on campus now. It's making me strangely claustrophobic. At least I didn't let myself get talked into hosting a student this year - I thought about it, but I really just need my private weekend time way too much. So I guess I'll just spend the next few days avoiding the profros like the plague.


God Says Yes To Me by Kaylin Haught



I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
I asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
I asked her if I could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
Thanks God I said
And is it even okay if I don't paragraph
my letters
Sweetcakes God said
who knows where she picked that up
what I'm telling you is
Yes Yes Yes
masterofmidgets: hair (hair)
So, I think the highlight of my day today was getting chocolate at work - which isn't too bad for a Wednesday? And it was really good chocolate - my boss had leftover Easter candy, and everyone who was on goal by 8.00 got some. I got a marshmallow filled chocolate egg. Would have been better with dark chocolate, but still so, so good. And then after work I called my dad so I'd have something to do on the walk home and we got into an argument about whether the country should go back on the gold standard. Um. He's very, very libertarian? But I think a lot of the positions he espouses (like the violent overthrow of the Establishment into anarchy) in debate he doesn't actually believe in in anything other than a rhetorical sense. And he can't vote, anyway, so. But it was a pretty interesting conversation.

Milestone: the longest parts of my hair are (finally) tailbone length, when they are sopping wet. Of course, I'm still not-quite hip length when it's dry, thank you curly hair, but still, I'm making progress! I am trying to decide if I want to get to tailbone length and maintain for awhile, to get less taper/healthier ends before I try to make it to classical length, or just do it all in one go and let my hemline catch up in a year or so. Decisions, decisions...


Poetry: our lecture today on modernism, leading into The Wasteland for next week, was absolutely fascinating. I love my professor so much. And I learned some really neat things about the development in the 20th century of the interaction between poet and reader, and how writers write for a popular audience vs writing for the initiate, the people who already get poetry. At the very end of the class my prof mentioned this poet, and I think she's pretty neat.

I Go Back To May 1937 by Sharon Olds

I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges,
I see my father strolling out
under the ochre sandstone arch, the
red tiles glinting like bent
plates of blood behind his head, I
see my mother with a few light books at her hip
standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks,
the wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its
sword-tips aglow in the May air,
they are about to graduate, they are about to get married,
they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are
innocent, they would never hurt anybody.
I want to go up to them and say Stop,
don’t do it—she’s the wrong woman,
he’s the wrong man, you are going to do things
you cannot imagine you would ever do,
you are going to do bad things to children,
you are going to suffer in ways you have not heard of,
you are going to want to die. I want to go
up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it,
her hungry pretty face turning to me,
her pitiful beautiful untouched body,
his arrogant handsome face turning to me,
his pitiful beautiful untouched body,
but I don’t do it. I want to live. I
take them up like the male and female
paper dolls and bang them together
at the hips, like chips of flint, as if to
strike sparks from them, I say
Do what you are going to do, and I will tell about it.


masterofmidgets: (obsession isn't healthy)
Things about Cable & Deadpool #25 which are awesomesauce:
  1. Captain America is in it! And his, ahem, flagpole.
  2. Steve's secret undercover spy name is Roger Stevens. Cap, you are a DORK.
  3. Happy nostalgic Steve eating in the mess hall, playing with kids, and painting a mural. Especially the last one - it's so sweet.
  4. STEVE SPEAKS IN RED WHITE AND BLUE STRIPED TEXT BOXES. OMG.
  5. The whole ending bit, where Cable shows him that even in his dark bad apocalyptic future, Steve's shield is a symbol of hope and idealism and freedom. It's a really strong scene. (It also reveals Marvel's argument that Cap had to be killed off because he is too antiquated and irrelevant for the bullshit it is. >:( Damnit, Marvel, THIS IS WHY YOU CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS.)
So, uh, guess what I just bought from eBay? *sheepish* But hey, I want to scan it for Cap_Ironman and maybe SDII, and I will feel better about that if I buy a hard copy. That, and my comics collection still needs a lot of work. Right now I've got a lot of Marvel Adventures and things with Booster Gold in them, but not much else. Still, progress is progress. Before you know it, I'll be buying books that were actually printed in the last year. (I mean, if the titles that most of my characters are in start failing less. Cause I won't touch Invincible Iron Man with a ten foot pole, everything Tim is in is an epic angstfest, GLC is about to get sucked into Backest Night and I DO NOT LIKE HAL, YA is on eternal hiatus, I've yet to see Bart's bad Flash characterization be fixed, Ted, Kon, and Steve are still dead...but Booster Gold's still good!)


Icarus by Rebecca Baggett


The story is so simple

really. Imagine

yourself gifted with wings,

every child's sleeping

and waking dream, imagine

that you could defy

that force dragging us all

to heel, imagine every sweet safe

green harbor below, laid out

for your choosing

like candies in their box.

Then imagine that one

gold coin, that fierce and pulsing

point around which worlds dance,

imagine the gentleness below

and that wildness above, imagine

that something in you echoed

to the leaping of its flames,

imagine how its one question

beat in your veins, how you saw

with perfect clarity that moment

in which each of us chooses,

forever. Imagine that voice

far below crying: Come

back      Come back


masterofmidgets: (grief)
To make up for being lame and not posting any poetry this weekend, in favor of whining about how sick and miserable I was, have some poetry spam!

An Irish Airman Forsees His Death by WB Yeats


I know that I shall meet my fate... )

Leda and the Swan by WB Yeats

A sudden blow; the great wings beating still... )

The Song of Wandering Aengus by WB Yeats


I went out to the hazel wood )
On A Political Prisoner by WB Yeats

She that but little patience knew... )

Theme For English B by Langston Hughes

go home and write a page tonight )
masterofmidgets: (fight song)
Even though I slept about twelve hours last night, I was still dead tired today. Luckily Thursday I only have Japanese, and that went alright - I don't think I embarrassed myself any more than usual at least. And once I got home and had lunch I had a nice long afternoon break to lie in bed in do nothing but mess about on the computer. I tried to have a conversation with about this quote she heard about loneliness making a writer, but I was far too braindead and couldn't get my thoughts (or my understanding of her thoughts) well enough together to get anywhere with that.

Unluckily, I had to work tonight, never my favorite thing to do. Especially since the first half of my shift was awful, lots of hang-ups and jerks and non-answering and no pledges at all. And then I finally talked to this very sweet, very interesting woman that I was absolutely positive was going to give money...and halfway through the call, her phone dropped the call. I was just about to throw up my hands and give up, since the universe obviously did not want me to succeed at anything tonight. But my supervisor convinced me to call her back - and she ended up making a pledge. And so did the next two people I talked to. So that was cool!

In all the sleep deprivation, I totally forgot to post a poem yesterday, so today I'm posting a bonus poem to make up for it. They have nothing to do with each other - one is a poem I really like by my lit prof, and the other one is a poem I read in high school that I just remembered today. I'm really glad I was able to find it again, because it's interesting.


What Language Did by Eavan Boland


The evening was the same as any other.
I came out and stood on the step.
The suburb was closed in the weather

of an early spring and the shallow tips
of washed-out yellows of narcissi
resisted dusk. And crocuses and snowdrops.

I stood there and felt the melancholy
of growing older in such a season,
when all I could be certain of was simply

in this time of fragrance and refrain,
whatever else might flower before the fruit,
and be renewed, I would not. Not again.

A car splashed by in the twilight.
Peat smoke stayed in the windless
air overhead and I might have missed:

a presence. Suddenly. In the very place
where I would stand in other dusks, and look
to pick out my child from the distance,

was a shepherdess, her smile cracked,
her arm injured from the mantelpieces
and pastorals where she posed with her crook.

Then I turned and saw in the spaces
of the night sky constellations appear,
one by one, over roof-tops and houses,

and Cassiopeia trapped: stabbed where
her thigh met her groin and her hand
her glittering wrist, with the pin-point of a star.

And by the road where rain made standing
pools of water underneath cherry trees,
and blossoms swam on their images,

was a mermaid with invented tresses,
her breasts printed with the salt of it and all
the desolation of the North Sea in her face.

I went nearer. They were disappearing.
Dusk had turned to night but in the air -
did I imagine it? - a voice was saying:

This is what language did to us. Here
is the wound, the silence, the wretchedness
of tides and hillsides and stars where

we languish in a grammar of sighs,
in the high-minded search for euphony,
in the midnight rhetoric of poesie.

We cannot sweat here. Our skin is icy.
We cannot breed here. Our wombs are empty.
Help us to escape youth and beauty.

Write us out of the poem. Make us human
in cadences of change and mortal pain
and words we can grow old and die in.\


Barbie Doll by Marge Piercy


This girlchild was born as usual
and presented dolls that did pee-pee
and miniature GE stoves and irons
and wee lipsticks the color of cherry candy.
Then in the magic of puberty, a classmate said:
You have a great big nose and fat legs.

She was healthy, tested intelligent,
possessed strong arms and back,
abundant sexual drive and manual dexterity.
She went to and fro apologizing.
Everyone saw a fat nose on thick legs.

She was advised to play coy,
exhorted to come on hearty,
exercise, diet, smile and wheedle.
Her good nature wore out
like a fan belt.
So she cut off her nose and her legs
and offered them up.

In the casket displayed on satin she lay
with the undertaker's cosmetics painted on,
a turned-up putty nose,
dressed in a pink and white nightie.
Doesn't she look pretty? everyone said.
Consummation at last.
To every woman a happy ending.

masterofmidgets: (heavy is the crown)
Digging by Seamus Heaney

Between my finger and my thumb
The squat pen rests; as snug as a gun.

Under my window a clean rasping sound
When the spade sinks into gravelly ground:
My father, digging. I look down

Till his straining rump among the flowerbeds
Bends low, comes up twenty years away
Stooping in rhythm through potato drills
Where he was digging.

The coarse boot nestled on the lug, the shaft
Against the inside knee was levered firmly.
He rooted out tall tops, buried the bright edge deep
To scatter new potatoes that we picked
Loving their cool hardness in our hands.

By God, the old man could handle a spade,
Just like his old man.

My grandfather could cut more turf in a day
Than any other man on Toner's bog.
Once I carried him milk in a bottle
Corked sloppily with paper. He straightened up
To drink it, then fell to right away
Nicking and slicing neatly, heaving sods
Over his shoulder, digging down and down
For the good turf. Digging.

The cold smell of potato mold, the squelch and slap
Of soggy peat, the curt cuts of an edge
Through living roots awaken in my head.
But I've no spade to follow men like them.

Between my finger and my thumb
The squat pen rests.
I'll dig with it.
masterofmidgets: (grief)
Two Thoughts:
  1. Dear self: using lotion, especially roommate's lotion that you have 'borrowed', when you don't know what the ingredients are is a terrible idea. DO NOT DO THAT. *itches*
  2. If anyone gets their hands on a Dreamwidth invite code and would be inclined to toss it my way, I would love you forever and ever! It looks very interesting and shiny over there, and I've been watching fandom rave about it for long enough that I'm really getting intrigued.
And a poem - I read this for the first time in my senior year of high school, and it's one of those poems that just stuck with me. Robinson has this way of very calmly and quietly writing about the most absolutely horrifying things that I just love, sadistic little bastard that I am. :)

The Mill by Edwin Arlington Robinson

The miller's wife had waited long,
The tea was cold, the fire was dead;
And there might yet be nothing wrong
In how he went and what he said:
"There are no millers any more,"
Was all that she had heard him say;
And he had lingered at the door
So long that it seemed yesterday.

Sick with a fear that had no form
She knew that she was there at last;
And in the mill there was a warm
And mealy fragrance of the past.
What else there was would only seem
To say again what he had meant;
And what was hanging from a beam
Would not have heeded where she went.

And if she thought it followed her,
She may have reasoned in the dark
That one way of the few there were
Would hide her and would leave no mark:
Black water, smooth above the weir
Like starry velvet in the night,
Though ruffled once, would soon appear
The same as ever to the sight.


masterofmidgets: (midnighter/Apollo)
Because gayness does not mean pornography, or lack of literary merit, here are three sonnets by William Shakespeare, all about the poet's love for a fair young man.


Sonnet 18

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date;
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

Sonnet 20


A woman's face with nature's own hand painted,
Hast thou, the master mistress of my passion;
A woman's gentle heart, but not acquainted
With shifting change, as is false women's fashion:
An eye more bright than theirs, less false in rolling,
Gilding the object whereupon it gazeth;
A man in hue all hues in his controlling,
Which steals men's eyes and women's souls amazeth.
And for a woman wert thou first created;
Till Nature, as she wrought thee, fell a-doting,
And by addition me of thee defeated,
By adding one thing to my purpose nothing.
But since she prick'd thee out for women's pleasure,
Mine be thy love and thy love's use their treasure.

Sonnet 55

Not marble, nor the gilded monuments
Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme;
But you shall shine more bright in these contents
Than unswept stone besmear'd with sluttish time.
When wasteful war shall statues overturn,
And broils root out the work of masonry,
Nor Mars his sword nor war's quick fire shall burn
The living record of your memory.
'Gainst death and all-oblivious enmity
Shall you pace forth; your praise shall still find room
Even in the eyes of all posterity
That wear this world out to the ending doom.
So, till the judgment that yourself arise,
You live in this, and dwell in lover's eyes.



masterofmidgets: (heavy is the crown)
Explorers Are We by Bill Watterson

I made a big decision a little while ago.
I don't remember what it was, which prob'ly goes to show
That many times a simple choice can prove to be essential
Even though it often might appear inconsequential.

I must have been distracted when I left my home because
Left or right I'm sure I went. (I wonder which it was!)
Anyway, I never veered: I walked in that direction
Utterly absorbed, it seems, in quiet introspection.

For no reason I can think of, I've wandered far astray.
And that is how I got to where I find myself today.



masterofmidgets: (guitar hero)
Instructions by Neil Gaiman

Touch the wooden gate in the wall you never saw before.

Say "please" before you open the latch,

go through,

walk down the path.

A red metal imp hangs from the green-painted

front door,

as a knocker,

do not touch it; it will bite your fingers.

Walk through the house. Take nothing. Eat

nothing.

However, if any creature tells you that it hungers,

feed it.

If it tells you that it is dirty,

clean it.

If it cries to you that it hurts,

if you can,

ease its pain.


From the back garden you will be able to see the

wild wood.

The deep well you walk past leads to Winter's

realm;

there is another land at the bottom of it.

If you turn around here,

you can walk back, safely;

you will lose no face. I will think no less of you.


Once through the garden you will be in the

wood.

The trees are old. Eyes peer from the under-

growth.

Beneath a twisted oak sits an old woman. She

may ask for something;

give it to her. She

will point the way to the castle.

Inside it are three princesses.

Do not trust the youngest. Walk on.

In the clearing beyond the castle the twelve

months sit about a fire,

warming their feet, exchanging tales.

They may do favors for you, if you are polite.

You may pick strawberries in December's frost.

Trust the wolves, but do not tell them where

you are going.

The river can be crossed by the ferry. The ferry-

man will take you.

(The answer to his question is this:

If he hands the oar to his passenger, he will be free to

leave the boat.

Only tell him this from a safe distance.)


If an eagle gives you a feather, keep it safe.

Remember: that giants sleep too soundly; that

witches are often betrayed by their appetites;

dragons have one soft spot, somewhere, always;

hearts can be well-hidden,

and you betray them with your tongue.


Do not be jealous of your sister.

Know that diamonds and roses

are as uncomfortable when they tumble from

one's lips as toads and frogs:

colder, too, and sharper, and they cut.


Remember your name.

Do not lose hope — what you seek will be found.

Trust ghosts. Trust those that you have helped

to help you in their turn.

Trust dreams.

Trust your heart, and trust your story.

When you come back, return the way you came.

Favors will be returned, debts will be repaid.

Do not forget your manners.

Do not look back.

Ride the wise eagle (you shall not fall).

Ride the silver fish (you will not drown).

Ride the grey wolf (hold tightly to his fur).


There is a worm at the heart of the tower; that is

why it will not stand.


When you reach the little house, the place your

journey started,

you will recognize it, although it will seem

much smaller than you remember.

Walk up the path, and through the garden gate

you never saw before but once.

And then go home. Or make a home.

And rest.



masterofmidgets: (cap wants to eat your brains)
A Poison Tree by William Blake

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe;
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water'd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with my smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veil'd the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch'd beneath the tree



masterofmidgets: (curious nightwing)
Before I got all grrrr angry, I was planning to make this post - so here it is now.

While I was walking home from work tonight, I saw two raccoons in the back arcade of the quad. I thought at first they were cats - a lot of the staff members who live on campus have pets, it wouldn't be that strange - but when they got closer to me I realized they were moving wrong, and then the light changed and I could see they were raccoons. They didn't seem to notice me at all, even though I was pretty close; too busy drinking water from the potholes and loping through the grass.

I've never seen a real live raccoon before. It astonishes me sometimes, all the life there is on campus. We have raccoons, and squirrels just everywhere. A few times I've gone out into the courtyard and there have been raptors in the trees. Not to mention all the lizards and weird bugs and stuff! I really love that about Stanford.

Anyway, it made me think of this poem, which I've always been oddly fond of just for its sheer silliness.


To A Squirrel At Kyle-Na-No by WB Yeats

Come play with me;
Why should you run
Through the shaking tree
As though I'd a gun
To strike you dead?
When all I would do
Is to scratch your head
And let you go.

masterofmidgets: (grief)
by Kakinomoto no Hitomaro

Since in Karu lived my wife,
I wished to be with her to my heart's content;
But I could not visit her constantly
Because of so many watching eyes--
Men would know of our troth,
Had I sought her too often.
So our love remained secret like a rock-pent pool;
I cherished her in my heart,
Looking to after-time when we should be together,
And lived secure in my trust
As one riding a great ship.
Suddenly there came a messenger
Who told me she was dead--
Was gone like a yellow leaf of autumn
Dead as the day dies with the setting sun,
Lost as the bright moon is lost behind the cloud
Alas, she is no more, whose soul
Was bent to mine like the bending seaweed.

When the word was brought to me
I knew not what to do nor what to say;
But restless at the mere news,
And hoping to heal my grief
Even a thousandth part,
I journeyed to Karu and searched the market place
Where my wife was wont to go!

There I stood and listened
But no voice of her I heard,
Though the birds sang in the Unebi Mountains;
None passed by who even looked like my wife.
I could only call her name and wave my sleeve.

masterofmidgets: (curious nightwing)
Monday-ish Thoughts
  1. My Lit prof is so awesome and I love her. Toward the end of lecture today, she gave a very impassioned and persuasive argument for why metaphors have magic powers and similies are for sissies. *grins*
  2. Japanese religions class was a brilliant idea. Most of the lecture today was an overview of Buddhist terms of import (Buddha names, schools of Zen, meditation techniques etc) and a discussion on cultural appropriation and de-mystifying Zen Buddhism. Fun and informative.
  3. Being the only Wiccan in the class when a professor asks if anyone has ever done magic is equal parts loltastic and so awkward.
  4. California weather fails, and I hate living in the dorms with no A/C. Max overheated and shut spontaneously shut down this afternoon while I was playing Sims, which I was NOT HAPPY about. I'm going to have to bust out my desk fan in the next few weeks if it stays this warm. DDD: Geez, you'd think being from the desert I'd be used to this sort of thing.
In P&P today we talked about closed forms - mostly villanelles and sestinas - and why poets would choose something so strict. It was pretty neat, since those fall so easily into nothing more than academic exercises, but can work really well if they are right. So today's poem is a villanelle by Elizabeth Bishop.

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant 
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.


--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied.  It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.


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