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May. 20th, 2010 09:07 pmI keep starting this entry and then getting distracted and wandering off to do something else because I can't figure out how to say what I'm thinking about right now in a way that sounds articulate and thoughtful. SO FUCK IT, YOU GET A LIST.
1. Every once in a while, I like to go back and look at my old journal posts. It can be pretty interesting to see what kind of person I was, what I was doing in fandom, what was going on in my writing, and compare it to what's happening to me now - it's always surprising to me how much I've actually changed, even just from one year to another. But this week I was looking at my posts from last year, and geez, was I seriously that crazy? It's weird...at the time I think I thought I was dealing with it, but in retrospect, I was about five feet away from a nervous breakdown (I don't know how y'all put up with me, but if I didn't say it then, THANK YOU). It's hard to get my head wrapped around what a difference a year's made; I'm so much more together, so much more happy, so much more okay, it's just mind-boggling. Sometimes I get bogged down in work and stressed out, but I've never hit that wall of despair. It's nice. :)
2. The reason for the above: I finally got all my midterms back, including the Short Story Take-Home of Doom, and I got As on everything. FUCK YEAH I'M AWESOME. I'm going to bask in this rare success for...exactly as long as it takes me to start panicking about the final papers I have due in a few weeks.
3. After all the medical bullshittery of summer break and spring break, I'm pretty happy about the fact that yesterday was my grandpa's 88th birthday. I am continually impressed by his ability to look Death in the eye and tell him to bugger off, but then this is what you get when you shell out for solid old-fashioned German manufacturing. I did my grand-daughterly duty in calling and sending a nice card, but I'm looking forward to seeing them when I get home in June.
4. I have exciting plans for this weekend! Wait, no, that's a lie. I'm going to sleep fuck-all late to make up for staying up too late this week, try to get some of my reading done and at least start to think about topics for my Shakespeare papers, let the psych department poke my brain for money, and meet my aunt for lunch, since she and my uncle are up from Sacramento on business. But hey, it should probably be pretty pleasant, even if it's not very adventuresome.
1. Every once in a while, I like to go back and look at my old journal posts. It can be pretty interesting to see what kind of person I was, what I was doing in fandom, what was going on in my writing, and compare it to what's happening to me now - it's always surprising to me how much I've actually changed, even just from one year to another. But this week I was looking at my posts from last year, and geez, was I seriously that crazy? It's weird...at the time I think I thought I was dealing with it, but in retrospect, I was about five feet away from a nervous breakdown (I don't know how y'all put up with me, but if I didn't say it then, THANK YOU). It's hard to get my head wrapped around what a difference a year's made; I'm so much more together, so much more happy, so much more okay, it's just mind-boggling. Sometimes I get bogged down in work and stressed out, but I've never hit that wall of despair. It's nice. :)
2. The reason for the above: I finally got all my midterms back, including the Short Story Take-Home of Doom, and I got As on everything. FUCK YEAH I'M AWESOME. I'm going to bask in this rare success for...exactly as long as it takes me to start panicking about the final papers I have due in a few weeks.
3. After all the medical bullshittery of summer break and spring break, I'm pretty happy about the fact that yesterday was my grandpa's 88th birthday. I am continually impressed by his ability to look Death in the eye and tell him to bugger off, but then this is what you get when you shell out for solid old-fashioned German manufacturing. I did my grand-daughterly duty in calling and sending a nice card, but I'm looking forward to seeing them when I get home in June.
4. I have exciting plans for this weekend! Wait, no, that's a lie. I'm going to sleep fuck-all late to make up for staying up too late this week, try to get some of my reading done and at least start to think about topics for my Shakespeare papers, let the psych department poke my brain for money, and meet my aunt for lunch, since she and my uncle are up from Sacramento on business. But hey, it should probably be pretty pleasant, even if it's not very adventuresome.